Questions for God

Heavenly Father, I have a lot of questions for You rolling around in my head and/or heart, so I decided to write them down.

  1. What should I look like? I know I should look like You, but I’m fuzzy on the details, beatitudes notwithstanding.

  2. What should my life look like?

  3. I know I’m overdoing it. And over-complicating it. How do I simplify—short of not doing the things I believe You have directed me to do? Right now it looks and feels like chaos.

  4. How do I specifically walk that out the way I am and where I am right now?

  5. As a caregiver and adjunct caregiver, how should I assist my charges, where they are and the way they are?

  6. I continue to hear Your directive the still small voice , “Write!” Did you have something specific in mind? I’m going at it, but am I on the right track? Am I writing too much? Too little?

  7. As a wife, what is my role as a help-meet supposed to look like? Perhaps more importantly given my tendency to please everyone, what should it not look like?

  8. Am I supposed to feel like an octopus being pulled in eight different directions? I’m seeking the peace that passes all understanding in the midst of all this chaos.

  9. I feel like I’m missing something. Did I misunderstand You or miss it somewhere along the way? —Aside from the places I already know about.

  10. You know I’m always seeking the right way to maintain my “temple”—reading and trying all sorts of things. Many of the overly complicated strategies I’ve read and attempted don’t seem sustainable in the long run given all the other roles and tasks on my plate. (See item number 2 above.)  You created me, know my age, and exactly what I need. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I don’t want to mess that up.

P.S. Some of that angel-bread You sent Elijah would be nice. Eating once every forty days sounds like a great cost and time saver.  I’m being silly here. Sort of. It really does sound awesome!

P.S.S. To my readers: If the above happens, I will endeavor to post a photo. :-)

I know I have some wise readers out there. Perhaps the Holy Spirit will give you something to share.