From Jill Parr’s website…
“I’ve personally felt completely lost with no hope of ever feeling better about myself. I’ve actually sat down on the floor and cried because I couldn’t see how my dreams and the fatigue of motherhood would ever balance themselves out.”
According to Parr this apparent impasse was a well timed attack by the evil one intended to undermine the mission for her life. “The lie has no effect on you unless you believe it, she says, but the truth has no impact either unless you believe it. Once I finally got it through my head that God loves me like a Father who will ferociously fight for my heart it all clicked for me.” The song Where I Belong (inspired by John and Stasi Eldredge’s book Captivating) talks about this discovery.
I’ve been waiting right here / For You to come and rescue me /
I have finally found a place I can feel safe and strong /
I can say I’m beautiful, this is where I belong /
County Line is another…
There is town at the foot of a mountain of memory/
I’ve lived there for years / A lifetime of fears and insecurity/
Never could measure up / I’ve lived there for long enough / It’s time to say good-bye
A song that finds Jill’s voice acting like a laser beam piercing through flesh and revealing the heart.
“I came to a point where I thought all the mistakes I’d made would forever outweigh any good I could ever offer,” she remembers, “I thought it would be easier for God to just start over with someone else but that’s just not His style. It’s a lot easier to create than it is to redeem and yet for me and every other person breathing He continues to fight to restore and redeem us. I sit speechless when I think about it.”
I don’t know why it seems so amazing to me that the evil one uses the same ploy over an over again. We feel like we are unique where our insecurities and tribulations are concerned.
Revelation 12:10 (New International Version)
Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say:
“Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God,
and the authority of his Christ.
For the accuser of our brothers,
who accuses them before our God day and night,
has been hurled down.